Failure

So, after a week of not having the energy to even admit it, I finally posted to my photography blog today that I'm a big failure. I made it 208 days into my 365 project, then dropped the ball. I just plain forgot to take a picture last Sunday. I was beyond tired. I was hurting. A lot. (My shoulder and neck pain has been awful this week). I barely crawled through the day then went to bed as soon as I could.

I've spent a few days wallowing in my failure, wondering why it's so dang hard for me to even do the things I enjoy during this phase of pregnancy. I know it's normal to be extra tired, but I'm exhausted to the point of not functioning, and this time around is still better than last time! If I can't even manage to continue a photography project that I've deeply enjoyed over the past seven months, how can I do anything???

I put a little thought into it and I really think my ADD has a lot to do with it. It takes me longer to work out my photography shot every day because it just takes me longer to think. Coming up with a shot, setting it up (or getting to a good location), getting my camera settings how I want them, and then processing and uploading the pictures takes twice as much energy for me as it would for most people. And that's extra energy I simply don't have right now. Any energy I produce is being sucked up by a rapidly growing MicroTot, and I'm ok with that. The little potamus-to-be needs it more than I need to take pictures. And hopefully I can get back to taking pictures again before long, I just have to remember that it's not as important as taking care of myself and my family. And anything extra I have right now needs to be used in that direction.