Thursday, September 5, 2013

Now Here's a Dilemma

Dilemma #1

Do you hope for a undesirable result just have an answer, or is it better to not know what's going on, but know it's not THAT?

Luke's EEG is scheduled for Monday, so by Tuesday we'll know if he's having seizures. If he is, I'd bet money he had on Monday night and that it was the second one since the possibility was mentioned two weeks ago.

So I don't want that to be the answer, but I want to know what's going on with him. If not that, what? Can't work on something if we don't know what it is. There are reasonable answers for all the weird things we've noticed except the speech and motor skill issues. I don't know what result to hope for here.

Dilemma #2

My mom started her second round of chemo yesterday. My cousin, who I haven't seen since my grandmother died two years ago, is going to be in Philly this weekend. Do I take the kids? Last time we did that Mom ended up in the hospital, but she swears it wasn't because of the kids and that her doctor said it was ok. I'm torn between going and not going. Mom wants us to go because she misses the kids. This is kind of a no win for me.

And you know what I've realized? This blog has become all about my mom's cancer and Luke's mystery issues. I need to work on that. But to be honest, those two issues pretty much sum up most of what's on my brain these days.

1 comment:

Allison said...

You know, as I was lying awake at 3 a.m. this morning, I thought of you. And your mom. And Luke. And I prayed for all of you.

And it's your blog - I just like to keep up with YOU so write about whatever's on your mind. Lord knows I do.